NoManIsAnIsland

it's been a while since...

i've actually let loose for one night... not really loose as in like i went sleeping around or what... but just to indulge in guilty pleasures i haven't done for quite a while... drinking, dancing... but well... in the end i was still the most sober hah... no matter what people say... i still believe there has to be someone awake and sober enough to take care of the others...

i've been to the arts canteen! or rather... it's the first time i've stepped foot into the arts canteen since it got renovated... it's so much bigger more... with more additions... but i still miss the old canteen... so many memories of yong tau foo incidents with sis there, olive cove (where they sold the delicious and sinful crackers) is gone, or just slacking there doing nothing at all...

i've seen the night change into day... it's always refreshing to do so once in a while... and because of the lack of distractions when you start work at like 4am, things get done much faster... still falling behind work but at least i'm making an effort to try to catch up...

i've been so excited about a game... saturday hails something to look forward to... the ultimate finale to a season... let's do it guys. nothing to fear! been doodling a lot in my notebook about possible plays on saturday night... ugh... just hope i don't get any butterflies in stomach on that day (yes... it happens even after 3 years of match experience)

yup... got to get my ass moving or i'll be late for that stupid woman's lesson hah.

determination.

[ Nick @ 6:53 AM ]__________________________________________________ 1 Islanders visited

song of the moment

张惠妹- 如果你也听说

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

如果你想起我
你会想到什么

[ Nick @ 4:32 AM ]__________________________________________________ 0 Islanders visited

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a year on

well it was supposed to be a happy day.

one year has finally passed since i got my licence, it's mid autumn festival... but geez... maybe i'm too tired from yesterday...

got a shock first thing in the morning from susan when she sent me an sms saying "she breathed her last"... only to find out that she sent it to the wrong person...

a bit frustrated with progress on my work as well... seems that i'm not getting anywhere...

but a major thought of the day should be that i should be more assertive on my POVs and not be affected by others around me.

it is after much deliberation that i'm going to take up the coaching thing with Weijing... it's better to be away from school anyway... it's time to put my priorities back in check...

so what if it's going to drain me? at least it's something worthwhile... and it's going to help in my career in the future.

i've also realised it's time not to expect so much... i've never been a very interesting person to begin with... and many times i feel that i'm just there to make up the numbers hah. conversations with me are never really interesting and long...

a period of low self-esteem hah.

maybe it's the season for some self-reflection... like how Fong pointed out.. it's always around this period when i get kinda moody and stuff.

for now... for everything in life... just evade and escape.

climbing out of the hole i dug for myself.

[ Nick @ 12:26 AM ]__________________________________________________ 2 Islanders visited

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myriad.

how am i feeling right now? hmm...

happy
Happy cos i've finally found my Ukelele CD... and i've been listening to it ever since... never mind they are an old band... i just think their songs nice and soothing... a nice break from listening to Jay and the new singers today...

sad
missed two penalties that could have potentially won my class two different games during soccer ICG yesterday... yes it was a really huge dent on whatever confidence i have... never really doubted my shooting skills... maybe i was too anxious... too nervous... sigh... really really upset about it...

tired
physically and mentally... physically cos i think i've more or less pushed myself to the limit... therefore the break from all sports today (also cos i can't walk properly now... muscle strain on my shin area)... glad that ICG is over... time to take a break from sports all the time and concentrate on work! many many projects!

responsibilities are kind of getting me down... as a son, brother, boyfriend, friend, player, mentor, coach, etc... sometimes i wonder if i'm taking on too much... but that's me... i like to crowd myself with stuff in the setting i am in... so much so that many other things are taking a backseat... it's me.

confused
some things i wonder... and i don't know what to do about it.

thought-full
been getting a lot of weird vibes and thoughts recently.. wonder what do those mean... but somehow i am glad that i manage to faint on my bed every night and i get a relatively dreamless sleep... but one dream has set me thinking since i had it about a week ago...

maybe i'm just reading into stuff too much... sleep will solve my problems... just sleep.

escapism.

[ Nick @ 10:44 PM ]__________________________________________________ 0 Islanders visited

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it's over!

like any other day... it came and went!

i'm always grouchy and tired on this day every year... don't seem to know why... once this day is over... i'm back to my usual self!

a big big thank you to my dear... who, despite being tired from work... still accompanied me... and thanks for the presents!

a special mention to gonzo as well... although i know gonzo won't be reading this... who cheered me up after a crappy start to the day...

also also... thank you (in no particular order)... Bro (first one every year), Shanti, Ade, Daniel, Buddy, Amy, Chuhui, Cecilia, Damian (though you're not here anymore... got your pre-sent card...), Bren, Amanda, Mike, Lingjie, Suken, Steph and not forgetting...

my insurance agent. haahaa!

[ Nick @ 12:00 AM ]__________________________________________________ 1 Islanders visited

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resist!

i am extremely proud of myself today...

went to ikea, went to queensway... and i didn't buy a single thing sia (actually i did... but it wasn't for me)... amazing...

had such a hard time curbing temptations that i think i might have internal injuries now muahaha....

at queensway, was eyeing this pair of adidas shoes, a new badminton racquet, tees, lanyards... omg...

at ikea, was eyeing lamps, a rocking chair, bedsheets and pet stuff for my dear ah pui haahaa

but wow... i feel immensely proud of myself!

hmm... but new balance this weekend... cfm will buy something!!! i will!

[ Nick @ 11:58 PM ]__________________________________________________ 0 Islanders visited

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