Plato
i'm upset... 2 disastrous trainings in a row doesn't go down well... it has reached a point where i'm actually thinking do i even deserve to be in the team. [
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7:18 PM ]
what's wrong with me? i feel spaced out, feel lethargic... and it's not helping my progress... my shots are heywire, my passing is atrocious... WTF IS GOING ON?!
slap me awake.
I see the morning glory [
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11:24 PM ] What can't i do. [
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2:07 AM ] this line just suddenly came to me on the bus when i was on my way home.. [
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10:37 PM ] Mornings are always the best to do work... your mind is clear from anything, you feel refreshed... the only problem though.. is waking up =P luckily... i concussed pretty early last night (10.30pm... not the usual timing for a uni person to crash) so i got up around 6am this morn... it was getting a bit too cold to sleep anyway... [
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6:54 AM ] so easily spoken... yet it brings with it so much. [
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5:24 PM ] what a year it has been... [
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2:26 AM ] i know it sounds stupid.. but i'm upset over losing my email userid and hp number. [
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8:50 PM ] jSm onz lah, bagus says: [
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12:20 PM ] sometimes there's this little niggling in your body and you know that you don't feel well... like something's going to come... the lethargy, the endless naps, the little feeling in your bones... yeah... i'm feeling something like that now... [
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11:31 PM ] I'll just let pictures do the talking... [
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1:47 AM ] after a long and terrible brain wrecking session... here it is... kinda cheesy... but i really love this line from Jerry Maguire... [
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12:09 AM ] I'm supposed to do a A3 poster with love as the theme... but i just can't seem to do it... [
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7:59 AM ] I really am. [
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6:37 AM ] Been having so many nightmares recently that i'm scared. [
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10:31 PM ] only once... don't think anyone can ever can have this effect on me again. [
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4:18 AM ] went to bed at 4 plus... tossed and turned till 6... [
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1:01 AM ] Should I choose to believe, or shouldn't I? [
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12:01 AM ] hmm it doesn't seem that bad after all... [
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4:33 PM ] haven't been blogging of late... nothing much to write about anyway... well... finally something to write about now... after a great badminton/makan/car ride session with Dad, Mum, Sebas, Bo and Yuyin... laughed so much at the backseat and enjoyed being the irritating one tt for a moment i forgot the situation i/we were facing... [
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11:56 PM ]
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be
You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate
You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle
in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase
All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe
I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains
can i afford a condo in the future? don't think so... maybe a hdb 3 room.
can i afford a car in the future? don't think so... how about a chauffeur driven volvo that seats 40?
can i afford to splurge 50K on a beautiful honeymoon? don't think so... how abt just a nice trip.. you and i... to nearby bangkok?
can i promise that you can have all the latest fashion? don't think so... how abt U2, Bossini or Giordano?
can i give you a huge rock once in a lifetime? i guess not... will a smaller one do?
What i can do.
give you all my love. period.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
"Just like cars travel faster when there's less passengers,
Man runs faster when he is less burdened."
Had a bad training session.. remind me not to wake up at 6am next time on training days... by 5 i was already zoned out.
yeah... wah sian.
Parents spend 1/2 their time telling us to go sleep early... haahaa... plus they complain about lotsa other things as well... however, when their kids start growing up... i think the kids themselves realise the follishness of their ways and will change w/o even being told to do so...
An example is my brother... just months ago my parents were complaining about how inaccessible he is... like he's so distant... well... luckily... he's past that stage... and he's grown up... speaking of which... he's enlisting next year Apr... but lucky him... slack company muaaha...
anyway today's the official death of 98193622... and hopefully i'll be able to keep my new number till the day my fingers rot and can't type sms-es anymore...
well we were asked in tutorial yest... "what do you like abt S'pore and what do you don't like abt it?"... realised i had nothing to say abt the good side... stability? prosperity? hmm... somehow i feel the prosperous front that S'pore shows is just a facade... i don't know if it's just me... but somehow or rather are there more homeless people out there? i somehow notice more people sleeping on benches or at bus stops at night now... the widening income gap is getting wayyy outta hand...
of course it's a social phenomenon that cannot be prevented... the rich will have the capital to be richer... and that's a sad fact of life...
let's turn communist! nah... just joking...
Dad's applying to be a taxi driver (woohoo free rides next time) and well... time to start reseaching where the profitable spots to pick people up are... haahaa... life's still ok... mum's thinking of being a full time baby-sitter (haahaa sit on the baby)... so cool!
as for me? i'll continue struggling in school... i can't believe i s/u-ed a module i got full marks for a test for... DAMN!
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Monday, October 24, 2005
alls well ends well... new number new phone... but the good thing is... i got to retain my email address!
And a million thanks to the unique school de and mh for listening to me rant last night... thanks!
just feel so emotionally and mentally drained...
thank God for floorball... for it's the only thing worth celebrating nowadays.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
my email userid has been with me since sec 3... and it's the one userid i always use...
i don't like changing phone numbers... cos i'm not that sort... i'm a sentimental idiot.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
1st find a babe
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
hahah
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
2nd start drinking
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
need me to go on?
[wëâk™] §ïäÕkïá àkâ ÑïçK says:
wookie
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
hahaha
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
3rd have a place ready
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
it can be a car, couch or a bed
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
WAHAHAHA
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
4th, just in case. always have protection in ready
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
5th, next morning, wake up n act blur and shout out loud "oh what have we done "
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
yeah
jSm onz lah, bagus says:
end of story.
nicknames have been changed to protect the master's identity. Master claims innocence but i seriously doubt so =] What great friends i have muahaha
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
dammit.
Monday, October 17, 2005
I'll start off with a Honda NSR150RR...
Then a Fireblade...
Finally my dream bike... the Suzuki Hayabusa... with a top speed of 269km/h! *drool*
Sorry mum =P
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
and it's been a good day... finally got the chance to apologize after like 4 years? feels like a great rock has been dropped from my heart... always feels good to make peace with the past =]
Hopefully i'll have a good rest tonight =]
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
been flipping through the misc photos that i have... and so far, what i've accomplished so far is just a shitload of memories.
impossible assignment lah.
Just 2 days after the demise of my wife, i went out wife-hunting again... guess what...
I got my wife's twin.
I'm such a bastard =P
Monday, October 10, 2005
Been tossing and turning in bed for so long that it seems i can go without sleep forever.
Help.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
After a year old service, my beloved wife, comrade in "battle", one who brought me hours of enjoyment, had passed away at around 1pm today. The cause of death is a broken shaft, the murderer, Mr Dennis Ang (24, Yr 4 Engineering). The incident happened when Mr Ang was doing his trademark crabwalk down the boards and i was following him. The next thing i knew, he had stepped on my wife and she lay broken and bruised.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank my wife for putting up with all the abuse i had "bestowed" on her. You will be missed sorely.
Rest in peace.
Friday, October 07, 2005
Thursday, October 06, 2005
woke up at 9 for my 9am tut...
wasted $1.20 printing a blank piece of work for visual comm...
went around school tasting brownies from different cafes (part 2 later!)
busted my knee playing floorball... can't walk properly now...
got a 2nd hand blade for 20bucks cos my old one was gone case...
played terribly as a defender in the last 30mins of training...
dinner at kfc with HC, Weewee and Siwei...
an episode of southpark before i sleep =P
a good day indeed! =]
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Sometimes it's hard to tell what's true and what's not.
Promises are so easily made... yet so easily broken.
Life is but a moving facade.
I don't know what to believe in anymore.
Monday, October 03, 2005
yes we'll still have to save, yes it will be a bit tough... but thank goodness the life i know now will still be intact..
there's still a light shining through the darkness..
Sunday, October 02, 2005
wouldn't it be nice if good times like those could last forever?
The word's out... kinda official... Dad will be out of a job w.e.f. tmr..
I was pretty shocked to see Dad awake this morn at 930am... cos normally on Sundays Mum and him would be up at around 11-ish... he told me he couldn't sleep... which was really weird since he went for his regular weekend mahjong sessions yesterday... when i came back from tuition, yeah my mum told me... i wasn't too shocked and everyday... and everyone now seems to be pretty lighthearted about the situation... i don't know if it's a false front that everyone is putting up or they really feel this way...
Dad started moving his spare parts from his van on Mon... and i guess his van's pretty cleared by now.. one of the tell-tale signs that he's sort of ready?
Which sets me wondering... I'm sure he wouldn't take a pay cut to keep his job... why can't companies be compassionate about it and just spare a thought for their employees?! it's not like people working at this age have a choice.. it just means they still have a family to support dammit...
but i guess there's nothing we can do eh?
wonder what lies ahead now...
thank God i haven't really led a "lavish" lifestyle since young... probably now what i can do is to save on my expenditure even more and just be at home more often... or accompany my dad more often... probably more regular badminton sessions... get him back in shape =P
frankly.. i'm just damn uncertain..
let's see how it goes..
"It is hard to return home and hear people moaning about needing a new car or TV when millions of people around the world don't have food or water." Andrew Ross, from an Irish Humanitarian Organisation called GOAL.