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Thanks Bro...

Thanks bro...

You always seem to get me out of these kinda sticky situations... not the first time already... and yup... tt's y i respect you for that =]

Thanks...

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hmm...

I'll do what I think is right... even if it means not being happy about it... hmm...

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Tendinitis strikes again...

Think I've just contracted tendinitis again... this time on my left ankle... the symptoms are the same from bmt 2 yrs ago... pain... inability to put too much pressure on my ankle... but as usual.. i'm stubborn...

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Evanescence - My Immortal

This is a VERY depressing song...
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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

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Saturday, September 25, 2004
5:22pm in Clubroom...

and feeling wierd while listening to "Sometimes love's just ain't enough"...

Had a pretty good afternoon... playing floorball with the peeps... really rusty now... can't even control the ball properly... but well... it was fun... probably the first and last time the guys and girls are gg to have training together =P surprisingly... the girls are even more violent than the guys haahaa...

Evanescence's My Immortal is playing now... suddenly in the mood for such songs... this song... was at Bro's place playing PS2 when we heard a dedication for this song... the guy dedicated it to his girlfriend who had just passed away 2 weeks ago... stunned...

Haiz... the harsh cruelty of life... the fragility of it all...

It's just one of those downtimes of my happy system... I'm fine!

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The Good Old Days...

Sorting my photos folder... feel damn nostalgic sia...

Miss Sports Camp... the start of my Uni life... the 6D5N of fun =P
Miss PLAD... esp the times before the exodus of people from camp... play together die together... and the wonderful annual overseas trips...
Miss SA... the peeps who would just stay behind in school just to chat =P
Miss RV... the endless running around the field just to chase the soccer ball or basketball =]



Miss the times I had sia... now all I have left are photos and images in my head...

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Seems tt's everyone's taking this...

So it's my turn =P

eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 7/10
Physical: 6/10
Giver: 10/10

You are a XPYG--Expressive Practical Physical Giver. This makes you a Roving Spouse.

You are magnetic, charming, and impossible to resist. You have no problem with approaching your target sex -- it just comes naturally to you, and the thrill of warming up a stranger is one of your great drives. Still, very few people really know you. You don't just *feel* misunderstood -- you are. You are probably nursing a heartache that you never let on.

You're calm in a conflict (almost *too* calm -- a more emotional partner may wonder why you're not more engaged) and quick with affection. Fighting makes you uncomfortable, but as you avoid direct conflict your frustrations can manifest in the cold shoulder and passive-aggression, which is no better! Still, you make a loving, doting parent -- giving more love than discipline -- and your children prefer you.

Like an XSYG, you put so much thought and effort in what you give to your partner that you feel dismissed and unappreciated if you don't get the same in return. You also give and think so much that you can also talk yourself into cheating -- physically or emotionally -- and this can lead a cycle of conflict, guilt, conflict-avoidance, chilly atmosphere and then more cheating. But you'll stay with your partner in the long run from guilt and a desire to please.

You've got to open up! You express and give so much of yourself in other ways -- don't be afraid to express what's bothering you.

I'm only being so hard on you because you remind me of me.

Of the 103474 people who have taken this quiz, 10.7 % are this type.

Do it here: http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better%2BRelationship&page=1

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Friday, September 24, 2004
Feeling good...

Hmm... been staying over in school a lot recently... trying to study... maybe try to run a bit... well... did run this week... the 8km Haw Par Villa route (nearly died) and well.. managed to study a bit... so i guess staying in school's a pretty good deal... although I don't have the luxury of sleeping on my bed, no personal computer to use... but well... it's still an ok tradeoff ba... altho sometimes late at night I would rather be on my msn haahaa...

Made up for the lack of sleeping on my bed just now by sleeping 6 hours straight... Got woken up by Jan though... and geez... i couldn't remember what the conversation was about! Hmm... don't know why was feeling pretty worn out... but feeling refreshed now! shiok sia...

Somehow just feel that some things in life I cannot control... and sometimes by trying to control things that i cannot wouldn't make things vv unpleasant... maybe I'm not supposed to do some things... but somehow well... just cannot help it? haahaa... let's just see ba...

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Saturday, September 18, 2004
Jay's coming!

Muahaha he'll be holding his concert on Nov 27th... and I already got tics! woohoo!

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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Good to go!

Realised I'm a person who can't be down for long... tt's good! After a good nap I'm good to go again =P think i was quite stressed out by the work yesterday ba... plus not enough sleep =P but in the end i managed to survive 3 tutorials! did all 3 tutorials! muahaha... after tt went to clubrm and settled the leaky aircon and also the faulty lan pts! good good... at least i'm getting back on track now sia =P

I'm fine lah =P maybe helping people is a way for me to appreciate the simple beauties of life... knowing peepo's probs will teach me a lesson in advance what to do and what not to do... but most importantly... helping someone and seeing the person recover and truly become the person he/she can be... tt's the greatest feeling of satisfaction anyone can get =] maybe sometimes i'm too kpo for my own good ba... thinking i'm some saint who can help people solve their probs when i've got mine to contend with... but somehow... i just don't think mine are tt big... i dun need a lot of time to myself... i rather spend it with the people i love... and it's because of the people i love that i'm willing to sacrifice for them =] just hope everyone to be happy and live happily ever after!


my fav pic from sports ball! 3 toots who are taking Philosophy this semester =P


Atoms from Sports Camp!

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Monday, September 13, 2004
End of a hectic week...

... and maybe the start of another...

Haven't been in the best of moods recently... and many of my friends say i look tired and everything... hmm... dunno why... esp tonite... can't help but feel tired emotionally, mentally and physically... suddenly just feel that I'm trying to handle too much... and it's disorganising my life... not tt my life was organised anyway... but well... thinking of what's the next step i gotta take... i'm really tired... still got 3 tutorials left undone... and it's for lessons that are 9 hours later...

Summary of my week would be... elections, got into the 25th MC, sentosa, swensens, agm, ikea then harbourfront then tiong bahru plaza then suntec, bus stop, sports ball, tinghan's bbq, basketball court at tinghan's place, christine's birthday...

tt's the problem when u dun blog often... there is just too much to blog after u accumulate it...

maybe i'll post some pics when i'm feeling bit better... simply can't be bothered to do anything now... i need a break... just a day... to find my direction again...

thank god the mid sem break's coming...

not before 2 essays and a test this week... not to mention i got a tuition kid... floorball...

just feel damn screwed up.

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Friday, September 03, 2004
!@#!~@~! speech...

Good afternoon President, Vice Presidents, and members of the 24th Management Committee and also fellow nominees. Today I stand here before you, requesting the chance to do my part for the 25th Management Committee of Sports Club as the Logistics Officer.

Running for Sports Club became clear after Sports Camp 2004 when I caught a glimpse of the running of the Club. From then I decided that I want to be part of the dynamic group that runs Sports Club, not only to maintain the good name of the Club but also to take it to new heights. Furthermore, after getting to know my fellow nominees and the 24th Management Committee, I am even more set to join the Club as I am convinced that not only would we work together as a team well, but we will also have fun as a team as well. I would really hope to be in the team that will bring Sports Club to greater heights, and this is a great opportunity to do so, if all who are seated here would give me the chance to.

Many would shun the idea of being a Logistics Officer as the role is normally associated with the moving of big, often heavy objects. As for me, I welcome the workout. Moreover I know that logistics is not just about “sai kang” as many would perceive it to be. Logistics is deep, it is essential to the efficient running of the Club and its events.

I am not here to promise anything, what I am doing now is to assure one and all that I am here to do my job well. Understanding the job scope is one thing, carrying it out is another. I am not a person who goes back on his words. Therefore when I say that I am here to do my job well, please be rest assured that I will give my all for the club.

I am fully aware of the challenges that the 25th Management Committee will face, the various projects in store and also the moving of the Clubroom this year. However, I am sure if we work as a team, any obstacles that come our way will be easily resolved. I am sure that each and everyone of us seated here will be up to the challenges that come our way.

Thank you for sitting through this PM Lee inspired speech and I am sure that most of you are glad that my speech did not take 3 hours, but nevertheless, I hope that everyone seated here would support me as the Logistics Officer for the 25th Management Committee. Thank you

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tMd...

at 2:10am in the morning... my knee cap chose to start giving problems... doesn't really help that i'm playing floorball regularly now... all the half squats and everything... but heck lah! i'll just worry about it when i'm 50 or something...




anyways... say hi to Hammie!

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Thursday, September 02, 2004
bored...

trying to start getting in the mood to study... hmm... it's harder than i thought =P

decided to forgo the lvl 1 climbing course... don't think i got time for it even if means free use of the gym during normal days...

So my current commitments stand at:
1) Sports Club
2) Floorball
3) Studies
4) When life's more settled... work
5) 1 doggy and 1 hamster

that's just the big picture... it seems full? yet... some part still feels empty...

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It's gonna be a bright... sun shiny day!

hmm... she msged me if i was in school today... but funnily... din feel the sense of excitement that i used to feel when she msgs me... maybe cos i was tired? haahaa... but whatever it is... think i'm succeeding at detaching myself already... no longer come online just to see if she's arnd... and i guess things are much better this way... less headache for me... and not tt she would know anyway haahaa =P feeling much better... just had dinner and a 5 hr nap before this.... so i guess i'm going to be an owl tonite again =P but it's good.... got tons of stuff to do... got elections on saturday... essays, assignments, tutorials etc etc...

and msn... the bane of all students! well... maybe not all... maybe for people like me... it's like pringles... once you start you can't stop... and work gets pushed behind time... late nites everyday... haahaa... but well... somehow i prefer the night when it's dark and peaceful out... yup gotta admit it's a bit lonely... but it's the kind of scenario i would love to work in... i dislike crowds... maybe tt's y i haven't been to a new years' countdown party in years... haahaa old liao lah.. go there feel out of place one =P

won't be around much tmr... should be gg to school trying to study... then CMAD's at 730pm... LTC's after that... think i should be riding my bicycle down to school... cos i gotta settle some stuff on saturday morning still... then elections at 2pm... relatives' bbq on sunday afternoon... school on monday with 2 tutorials due...

and dum dum Hammie's sleeping on the roof of his house... sheesh!

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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
sHootZ!

she's asking me what's the meaning of my msn nick =P shootz... but hmm... i'm not saying anything cos at this pt of time... i dunno what i'm feeling also... everything for me's getting more and more confusing...

asked xp tt nite what she think that i was feeling... "Infatuation" she said...

And somehow yup i think tt's the case... but my stand's still clear... i'm not doing anything... and hopefully what i feel will fade away sia... cos i'm a menace to any girl in this world! muahahahaha!

Seen a lot of broken hearts
Go sailing by
Phantom ships lost at sea
And one of them is mine
-- BB Mak "Ghost Of You and Me"

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Wierd...

Had a funny dream just now... din explain anything at all... only left me with question marks when i woke up... hmm...

Listening to slow ballads now... dunno y... just suddenly in "this kind of mood" again... haiz...

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

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Patty Smyth & Don Henley - Sometimes Love's Just Ain't Enough

Dunno why... this song just suddenly started playing in my head... anyway... here are the lyrics...
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I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And i don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But i don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool i keep losing my place
And i keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now i could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
But i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain

And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where i used to lay

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know its your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

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There's work to be done...

Geez... the work's starting to pile up already... got 3 essays due in the same week in September (2nd week of Sep)... and looking at my Sep schedule so far... geez... I really gotta start work now... September just flew in like that... slept through the transition from August to September... lotsa outstanding work to be done... lotsa research to be done... still got a speech to settle... a bbq to settle... geez...

And the lovely webcast's not playing... well done...

feel quite behind time now... especially for modules like my European studies and Philosophy... South Asia wasn't too bad... considering that i had only half prepared of the class and managed to crap my way through... Computing and ICM's fine... so i'm like wondering... why ain't i in computing?

To which my mei told me "cos ure in Arts"... cold~... haahaa

Let's see the outstanding work I've got...
1) Read "Diary of a Naploeonic Foot Soldier" (Damn the book is damn dry... zZzZzzzz)
2) Read up on my Euro Studies (Haven't been paying attention in class muahaha)
3) GEK and Philo webcasts (around 3 to be watched... tt's 6 hrs... rather watch Naruto haahaa)
4) Speech for this Sat's Internal Elections (dunno what to write!)
5) Assignments assignments!

So geez... the bulk of my work comes from Euro Studies... kaos... it's a really confusing topic... nvr felt so confused in a history class before... maybe tt's y I'm having 2nd thoughts on majoring in history... ICM's really appealing... really enjoy the lessons so far... and I've got a farnee lecturer haahaa... he's 29 and he's got a master's degree already... married with 1 kid... wah piang... he's got... what i really wish for in life...

ookie... better stop blogging and start working... *growl*

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